Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

T h a t th is was no t a single occasion can be seen from th e recollection of a second companion in the novitiate, S is te r P.; "I recall tha t once when she came back from confession she was weeping silently. I was changing in the same dormitory, to go to work. A t a certain moment I heard S ister Faustina fa l l to her knees weeping and saying, "Jesus, Jesus, no one under­ stands me," and later, "Jesus, who w ill understand me?" When another sister entered, I sa id there was something the matter w ith S is te r Faustina. Tha t sister ran for the Novice Mistress. The Novice Mistress came and took S is ter Faustina to her room. What they talked o f I do not know, and dur ing the next recrea­ tion I noticed tha t S ister Faustina again had some interior suffering." (Archives of S.F., Recoil.). F au s tina h e rse lf noted h e r s ta te in h e r Diary: 'The priest to whom I wen t to confession sa id to me, "I see very special graces in you, Sister, and I am not worried about you at aCC; why are you torturing yourseCf in this way?" (But a t that time I d id not understand at a d what he was saying and was extremely surprised when, by way o f penance, I was ordered to say the Te !Deum or the Magnificat (as thanksgiving fo r graces received) or to run fa s t round the garden in the evening, or eke to (augh out (oud ten times a day" (The batter was f o r the release o f mental tension). (Diary, Notebook I, para . 68). S is te r F au s tin a appeared dea f to th e m eaning of w ha t was being said to her. H er suffering increased from day to day. The crisis came. 87