Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

"At a certain point, tfere came to me the very power­ f u l impression that I am rejected By (jod. This terriBle thought pierced my sou l right through; in the midst o f the suffering my souC Began to e?cperience the agony o f death. I wan ted to die But could not... Ahat dreadful thought o f Being rejected By (jod is the actual torture suffered By the damned. I f l e d to Jesus ' Wounds and repeated the words o f trust, But these words Became fo r me an even greater torture. I went Before the ‘Blessed Sacrament, and I Began to speaks to Jesus: "Jesus, you sa id that a mother would sooner forget her in fan t than (jod (His creature, and that "even i f she wou ldforget her infant, I, jo d , w ill never forget (My creature.' 0 Jesus, do f o u hear how my sou l is moaning? Deign to hear the pa in fu l whimpers o f yo u r child. I trust in you , O (jod, Because heaven and earth zvill pass, But you r word w i l l last forever." S t i l l I fo u n d not a moment o f relief." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 23). The frightened S is te r Fau s tina , unable to help herself, went to h e r Directress of Novices and to he r confessor. Her Novice M istress a t once recognised the process which the soul of the novice was going through , calmed h e r and added, "‘Know, dear Sister, that j o d has chosen you fo r great sanctity. ‘Ihis is a sign that j o d wants to have you very close to H imself in Heaven. Have great trust in the Lord Jesus." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 23). Her confessor took the same a ttitude . Above all, he confirmed th a t these were tr ia ls from God, and th a t 85