Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

"‘The second year o f the nomtiate zoos approaching. ‘Whenever I recatted that I was to make, my vows, my souC shuddered. I d id not understand what I was reading; I could not meditate; i t seemed to me that my prayer was displeasing to Qod." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 23). "‘Every time I entered the chapeC fo r some spiritual exercise, I experienced even worse torments and tempta­ tions. More than once, a tt through EfoCy Mass, I had to struggle against Blasphemous thoughts which were forcing themselves to my lips.' (Diary, Notebook I, para. 77). "It seemed to me that By approaching the Moly Sacraments I was offending Qod even more... Qod was working very strangely in my soul. I d id not understand anything at a ll o f what my confessor was telling me. Ehe simple truths o f the fa i th Became incomprehensiBle to me. M y sou l was in anguish, unaBle to f i n d comfort any­ where.’ (Diary, Notebook I, para. 23). "It sees wha t it does not wan t to see. I t hears what it does not w an t to hear." » (Diary, Notebook I, para . 97). “One thing d id surprise me: it often happened that, at the time when I was suffering greatly, these terrible torments would disappear suddenly ju s t as I was approaching the confessional; But as soon as I had left the confessional, a tt these torments would again seize me zvith even greater ferocity." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 77). 84