Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

unde rs tand it. She no longer makes its performance depend on the necessity of unde rs tand ing why and wha t for, b u t en tru s ts h e rse lf to God blindly and w ithout regard for the cost. 7 have placed a d my trust in you r zvill which is, fo r me, love and mercy itself, f t id me to stay in this convent, I zvill stay; hid me to undertake the worki I w i l l under­ take it; leave me in uncertainty ahout the work, un t i l I die, he hlessed; give me death when, humanly speaking, my life seems particularly necessary, he hlessed. Should yo u take me in my youth, he hlessed; should y o u let me live to a ripe old age, he hlessed. Should yo u give me health and strength he hlessed; should y o u confine me to a hed o f pain f o r my whole life, he hlessed. Should y o u give only failures and disappointments in life, he hlessed. Should y o u allow my purest intentions to he condemned, he hlessed. Should y o u enlighten my mind, he hlessed. Should yo u leave me in darkness and a ll kinds o f torments, he hlessed. from this moment on, I live in the deepest peace, because the Lord himself is carrying me in the hollow o f Shis hand. She, Lord o f unfathomable mercy, knows that / desire Shim alone in a ll things, always and everywhere.’ (Diary, Notebook IV, para . 1264). So, a t th e end, the sacrifice was made. S ister F au s tina had succeeded in conquering herself, and, hav ing detached he rse lf from th e la s t earth ly longing - though it was in its essence very much divine - agreed to accept w ithout opposition every wish of the Lord. There was no more inner resistance in her. And th is was no t the re su l t of the mood of th e moment. The 302