Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

'A t eight o 'clock. I was seized zvith such violent pains that I had to go to 6ed at once. I zvas convulsed zvith pain fo r three hours; that is, un t i l eleven o'clock. at night. Ofo medicine had any effect on me, and zvhatever I szvallozved I threzv up. A t times, the pains caused me to lose consciousness. Jesus had me realize that in this zvay I took, part in JTis Agony in the Qarden, and that die himself allozved these sufferings in order to offer reparation to Qod fo r the souls murdered in the zvomhs o f zvicked mothers. I have gone through these sufferings three times now. ‘They alzvays start at eight o'clock, in the evening and last un t i l eleven, dig medicine can lessen these sufferings. When eleven o'clock.comes, they cease By themselves, and I f a l l asleep a t that moment. ‘The follozving day, I f e e l very zveak . ‘This happened to me f o r the f ir s t time zvhen I zvas at the sanatorium. The doctors couldn't ge t to the Bottom o f it, and no injection or medicine helped me at all, nor d id I myself have any idea o f zvhat the sufferings were a l l aBout... ‘But now I understand the nature o f these pains, Because the Lord himself has made this known to me... f ie t when I think, that I may perhaps su ffer in this way again, I tremBle. Bu t I don 't knozv whether I ’l l ever again su ffer in this way; I leave that to Qod. What it pleases Qod to send, I zvill accept zvith submission and love. I f only I could save even one sou l from murder By means o f these offerings!" (Diary, Notebook IV, para . 1276). As if th is diseased and aching body were capable of re-crea ting w ithou t end new sp iritua l s treng th s ready for lim itless oblation, to the suffering already described 10 Sister 289