George Matulaitis Journal

59 1911 There are no entries for about six weeks, during which a new year has begun. During Christmas vacation Fr. Matulaitis was in Warsaw, where he gave retreats and did other pastoral work. He was also directing one or more secret religious communities for women. When he got back to the Theological Academy, he discovered that, without his consent, he had been appointed vice-rector. 1 He was not very happy with this, since it took up time that he would gladly have reserved for his novices and for the task of writing a book of Instructions. The new Constitutions had already been completed and approved by Rome in November of 1910. At this time Matulaitis had decided to give up his lectures on sociology and teach instead dogmatic theology, for which he felt better qualified. January 13 I have not written anything for a long time, but have experienced and endured much. Praise God for everything; may His holy will be done in all things. I kiss the hand of Providence; I surrender myself completely to Your guidance—lead me, Lord. Heavenly Father, do whatever You wish with me. It has pleased You to lead me along wondrous paths, Lord. But who can understand Your ways or anticipate Your thoughts? I am your servant, Lord; send me wherever You will. Like a little child I fall into Your arms. Carry me! You have been pleased to lead me along a road filled with obstacles, difficulties, and hardships. For this I thank You, for this I am deeply grateful. As I travel this road, I trust that here I will not lose my way so easily because this is the road that my beloved Savior Jesus Christ has taken. Lord, how I love You! Grant that I may love You more and more and never stop loving You. My heart is aflame! I would pour out my 1 The vice-rector or inspector of the Academy was responsible for maintaining order and discipline among the students. It was considered a promising position, leading to greater things.