Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

companions sha ll 06 tain mercy fo r yourselves and the zvorld.' I understood that I zvould not remain in the Congregation in zvhich I am a t the present time. I sazv clearly that foci's zvill regarding me zvas otherzvise. ‘Bu t I kept making excuses before Qod, telling dlim that I zvas unable to carry out this task, "Jesus, f o u knozv very zvell zvhat I am ’ [I said], and I started enumerating my zveaknesses to the Lord, hiding behind them so that die zvould agree that I zvas unable to carry out dlis plans. Lhen I heard these zvords: '‘Do not fear; I myself zvid make up fo r everything that is lacking in you.' ...I understood that Qod demands a more perfect zvay o f life o f me. dlozvever, I kept using my incompetence as an excuse." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 435). The pro trac ted silence on the subject of the revela­ tion, and the la te r very re s is tan t and unw illing account of i t indicate the desperate struggle in S ister F au s tin a ’s soul. The resistance to revealing the will of Je su s was so g rea t th a t she was no longer a t th a t point able to be as totally objective as before. From somewhere in the very depths of h e r being a p ro tes t welled up, which broke through all the restric tions binding on her. She did no t describe th a t revelation. The question of a new religious congregation came up for the f irs t time in a conversation S ister F aus tina had with F a th e r Sopocko on 29th Ju n e , i.e. about a month a fte r she confessed to him du ring the sacram en t of penance th a t she was avoiding the voice of the Lord. “When I talked to my spiritual director [Fa ther Sopocko] about various things that the Lord zvas asking o f me, I thought he zvould te ll me that I zvas incapable o f accomplishing a ll those things, and that the Lord 224