Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

I was very upset by this. I thought that I w ou ldg e t myseCf free from everything, and it turned out quite the opposite - an e?(plicit command to foCCozv the requests o f Jesus. A n d now, stiCC another torment, as I had no permanent confessor... I ashed Jesus to give these graces to someone eCse, because I d id not know how to make use o f them and was onCy wasting them." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 53). S ister Fau s tina , who went to confession to F a the r Andrasz for the la s t time on th e eve of h e r depa rtu re for Vilnius, i.e. on 24th May, and who had for th e las t month had the joy of hav ing a sp iritua l director who was both infallible and decisive in h is role, was now overwhelmed with fear for the unknown fu tu re awaiting h e r in a town th a t was new to her. Too well she knew th e savour of being m is trus ted . She therefore com­ plained to Jesus: "Jesus, y o u gave me this I f ather who understands my inspirations, and now yo u are taking him away from me again. ‘What am / going to do in this Vilnius? I don't know anyone there, and even the dialect o f the people there is foreign to me." A n d the Lord said to me, 'Do not fear; I zv ill not leave you to y o u rse lf ..Suddenly I remembered the vision in which I had seen that priest between the confessional a nd the altar... A n d the words I had heard came back, vividly: ‘Me zv ill help you to fu lf i l 9dy zv ill here on earth.' (Diary, Notebook I, para . 258). And a t h e r la s t confession to him, F a th e r Andrasz 'stressed that I must be fa i th fu l to god 's grace and said, “9{p harm zvill come to you if, in the future, you con­ 135