Sister Faustina Kowalska: Her LIfe and MIssion

"...I began to grow a bit negligent. I d id not pay attention to these interior inspirations and tried to distract myseCf. ‘But despite the noise and the distraction, I could see what was going on in my sou i ‘The word o f Qod is clear, and nothing can stifle it. I began to avoid encounters w ith the Lord in my sou l because I d id not want to f a l l prey to illusions. “However, in a sense, the Lord kept pursuing me zvith His g ifts; and truly I experienced, alternately, torture and joy." (Diary, Notebook I, para . 130). One day, tired out w ith a ll these uncertainties, I asked Jesus, "Jesus, are yo u my Qod or some k ind o f phantom? Because my Superiors say that there are all sorts o f illusions and phantoms. I f y o u are my Lord, I beg you to bless me." Lhen Jesus made a big sign o f the cross over me and I, too, signed myself. ‘When I asked pardon o f Jesus fo r this question, He replied that I had in no way displeased Him by this question and that my confidence pleased Him very much" (Diary, Notebook I, para . 54). S ister F au s tina a t leas t did no t cease to beg th a t the Lord would convince he r of th e genuineness of her revelations. She constantly renewed h e r pleas, seeking new ways or occasions to do so. "Seeing that I was ge tting very little help from people, I turned a ll the more to Jesus, the best o f a ll teachers. J it one time, when I was f i l le d zvith doubts as to whether the voice I heard came from the Lord or not, I began to speaks to Jesus interiorly zvithout forming any words. Suddenly an inner force took, hold o f me and I said, "If y o u who commune zvith me and talk, to me are truly my Qod, I beg you , O Lord, to make this ward go 120