899 apologia for his departure from the order of pious schools for permission, but I never received any response.208 Why did they behave like this towards me? He will become famous (they say) through his printed books, he will have protectors; and then, how will we defeat him? 53. For this same reason, they forbade me from placing my name [as the author] — although the Constitutions command this209 — upon the Panegyric offered to His Venerable Majesty, the King of Poland, in the name of the Warsaw College — if I remember correctly — on the fifth day, shortly after his most fortunate election.210 And if I had put my name, they wanted to burn the Panegyric, clearly lest [I become] known in some way to someone in higher authority,211 by whom I would be later protected and saved most graciously from the tempest which they had prepared for me.212 54. I do not state this, most beloved, for their shame (because I do not wish that anybody be ashamed) on account of this enmity toward me, on account of this great opposition to the laws, or on account of the many and quite serious reasons (for they are many, and even more serious, which I pass over in silence) given for my departure from your Community. But I pray that they feel contrition. I certainly suffer rightly for my sins. So what awaits you? On my side, there is true love, in which I desire to remain;213 however, there is judgment on the side of God, who knows intimately the most secret thoughts and the heart. I, however, most humbly bend the knee before His goodness for your love. Do the same for me, 208 These petitions are no longer extant. The Crucified Orator was probably ready for publication in 1668, but it was printed in 1670, when Fr. Papczyński, being under the jurisdiction of the Ordinary of Krakow, no longer had to ask the Piarist General for permission to print. 209 Cf. ConstSP, Part II, Ch. VII, n. VI. Cf. SH, p. 71, n. 170. 210 Michael Korybut Wiśniowiecki, elected king in Warsaw, on June 19, 1669. 211 Cf. § 23. 212 This “storm” was probably the imprisonment of Fr. Papczyński ordered by the Provincial Fr. Opatowski at the beginning of the year 1670. Cf. above, §§ 19-20. 213 Cf. Positio, pp. 233-246 (Doc. VII, B), where we find evidence that Fr. Papczyński, after leaving the Piarists, always demonstrated a great love for this Order in both word and deed.
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