875 apologia for his departure from the order of pious schools Latin text of the Apologia appeared in 1977 in the Positio. For a more detailed discussion of the above-mentioned issues relating to the text of the Apologia, we refer the reader to either the Positio79 or the introduction to the Latin critical edition of this text.80 Because I hear various opinions of different people, and even of prudent men, on the topic of my actual departure from my first vocation, and at the same time, I consider that it is a very appropriate thing that — for the sake of disclosing or preventing human error, even if the truth itself is given as public news — I present the true exterior reasons for this fact, caused not by any craving for the defense of my honor, which I surely do not possess and which I despise, nor by any attempt to harass or defame anyone, but [only] so that each could know quite well that neither did I depart from the Order of Pious Schools out of recklessness, nor was I expelled on account of any other cause, but only on account of important reasons did I, in fact, ask for being released [from vows].81 First Cause: Hostility 1. The common opinion of theologians is that it is permitted for a religious to honorably and with dignity abandon his vocation, if through hostility or quite frequent persecution he cannot persevere in it with a peaceful spirit.82 The Superiors themselves troubled, bothered, and tormented me so much, that I several times protested [against this, letting them know] that I no longer had strength nor spirit to bear this ceaseless storm. I did not achieve anything through this, but rather I exacerbated even more minds that were already agitated. Finally, I came to the firm 79 Positio, pp. 247-252. 80 Cf. SH, pp. 31-36. 81 Cf. above, HW, pp. 862-863 n. 4. 82 Father Papczyński does not mention here or elsewhere the names of the theologians who held such an opinion, nor does he indicate the works in which it was expressed. Some theologians and works fromwhich Fr. Papczyński may have taken this opinion are pointed out in critical edition of the Apologia. Cf. SH, p. 38, n. 27.
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